Hearts get broken all the time...

" How do I tell her I don't wanna be here anymore
Nothing she did I just don't feel like the way I used to feel before
Make no mistake I have no problem having you around , I mean you're cool and stuff
I just don't wanna be yours anymore "

In all aspects of life one thing remain constant : Change
Be in in our careers, relationships, finances etc it is inevitable for a degree of change to happen in your life , having to move due to a new job, having to sell your grandfathers old skorokoro to purchase a new model. But one thing that gets all of us is love
Finding it , losing it , love love love
So there I was thinking is there a difference between dating someone and loving someone

Just a thought is it possible you can date someone for a year or so and fall out all love with them but still keep them around because of fear of being alone. A devil you know is better than an angel right ?
It is said there is nothing new under the sun, nothing. All the things we do and we think they haven't been done before were done way before we were born. It is sad when instead of using things , people use other people . So on dating you see we under the impression that we might marry them but we know very well we ain't happy and there is probably no hope. On love when you feel that there is hope you then make a decision that you will love this person and hope for the best ?

If you cannot be with the one you love, love the one you are with. James Baldwin wrote, ‘You think your pain and your heartbreak are unprecedented in the history of the world, but then you read. It was books that taught me that the things that tormented me most were the very things that connected me with all the people who were alive, or who had ever been alive.’

20 Something

I often hear people say : Women mature quicker than Man.
That is why it is recommended that a man date a woman younger than them
Apparently we men, take our sweet time to be matured
And when I talk about maturity I am talking in response of starting a family. You know getting married and having a baby or two depending on how many little accidents you have, or if you have done proper family planning you will just have the avarage 2 kids
Hoping for a boy and a girl to balance the equation
The girl is for the mom and the boy is for the father, and when you get only girls or boys what happens then, maybe that's why I come from a big family, my parents kept on trying lol
In any case I thank them for my life back to "maturity"

When in school they put you in the same class with the same age of kids as you and it is highly possible to find a mixed class with boys and girls aged between lets say 18 and they are all in matric.
So we pass and off to college we go, having being used to dating girls our own age, then as in all things in life change happens
Hanging out with you and your boys playing video games the whole weekend is not enough anymore, she meets older more mature man who have been around and can show her some new things. The thing is even if you have enough money like the other old guys, the two of you just seem to have less and less things in common and so you guys separate and stay friends or start  hating each other, whatever.
Honestly when I got done with varsity and start making a bit of money I was not thinking about starting a family, no no sir I wanted to enjoy myself and "play" , the very same group of girls in my class that I came up with now want to start families and meet some late 20 something year old and life goes on.

On the other hand when I am an older 20 something I will be looking for a woman that was her age, a beautiful young 20 something year old or I will be hitched to the same girl now because of her maturity would have won against my " sweet time to be matured " . Women do everything their mothers do, and man do everything their fathers do. Honestly I don't know how to finish this one so if you have something on your mind that you would like to share feel free.

The first cut is the deepest

As I look back in my life
In all the warm soft bosoms of all the woman I have had in my existence in this beautiful world
I look upon such as a great mystery and a sign of life
I have loved
I have been loved
I have felt what it is to feel something for another human being
Giving yourself to someone, trusting them with your heart sharing with them your thoughts
fears and most importantly your time
I have been at the edge of love

Many times in our lives, we meet people who not only touches us but they heal us
they make life worth living
And the danger is that the same person showing you love today
can turn around and show you hate tomorrow
that's the thing about love, strange isn't it

My Washing Machine

Here I am doing my laundry, which is something I have done since I left home for college
And the other day I washed my clothes, I had alot of shirts as I washed them I somehow ended up hurting my fingers. My hands were feeling numb, more like I had just done hard labour and yes I didn't like the feeling . I then thought to myself I do not want to do this again which led me to my washing machine.

So I went to the shops got myself a washing machine, even though it was abit expensive and prior to that fateful day when I washed my clothes I have never thought of buying one , I always preferred hand washing it by myself or hire someone to do it for me. Ok so back to the washing machine, I took the machine home and I hadn't done my laundry for about a full month so my laundry was piling up . I unboxed it and got ready to wash so since it was my first time using this particular model I read the instruction and yes the whole manual, I had some time on my hands.
I followed the instructions which led me to my first wash

Firstly I had to buy an extension cord, Secondly buy washing machine powder, Third had to pay someone to deliver it to my place and got ready for laundry, I just put my clothes in the machine and off it went I loved it. So one might ask why write about such a normal chore well here is what I learned from the whole experience( besides not needed a wife anymore hahaha) .My electricity bill went up . I had to buy specific washing powder to use only for the machine and not counting all the other little expenses that comes with this new convenience of mine. No one tells you about the after effects of it all, all the additional expenses that comes with the purchase and the new costs I now have because of the machine but it has made my life convenient ?